The Unknown Gate From Yesterday

So there I was just minding my own business when I ran into the person I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. It was almost a year ago when I met my ex-fiancee. Even though he moved on to several different relationships immediately after calling it quits, I still wish him happiness. You see, if it wasn't for him then I wouldn't be where I am today. No he doesn't deserve credit for me being an honor-roll student in college or becoming a successful writer. It is all about the timing and how I ended up here. Regardless of the mess that was left, I did learn from my mistakes. Never again will I be blinded by some fictional fairytale come-on. After having my heart and dreams trampled on, I realized that life isn't about finding prince charming. Men will come and they will go. It is very rare that a man will be honest and stick to his word. My mother always told me that "you can't hurry love." The song was made popular by the 'Supremes." in the 1960's. Lyrics have more meaning when they are an actual experience. I wanted the white-picket fenced, American dream so bad that I risked everything to have it. Then I was left with empty promises, a painful truth and no white-fence in sight. However, what doesn't kill us makes us stronger. My almost "mother-in-law" to be told me that many times. It is a shame that we couldn't remain friends. I loved his parents like my own. That is part of the reason why the break-up hurt so bad. At the time, I didn't know a single soul in the town I just moved to. It was a very dark and lonely time. College was going to start in two weeks and I had to get up off my broken hearted ass, and do it myself. Sadly, my ex told me I would be a failure. Funny how it worked out. I managed to almost get a 4.0 and I am now attending my second semester. My music career is finally back in gear too. I need to get moving on because I need to write some big checks to get what I want and to shut people up. Money talks and I am just ready to shove it down a specific person's throat. There is a method to my madness going to college and pursuing my dreams. So many people have told me I would amount to nothing. Now look at me. They can kiss my ass. If a person judges someone then they obviously have some serious issues. No one is perfect. No one. Believe it or not I will never hold a grudge against those who attempted to hurt and kick me while I was down. I have to pray for them because there must be a reason why they are the way they are. Misery loves company.
Life is what you make it. You can either run from it or go with it. I am not going to run anymore. In fact, someone can chase me. I'm done running around in circles and getting dizzy. Fullfilling my desires is my job and I will never give that responsibility to any one ever again. Hell no! My kids, my family and my honest friends complete me. Those are the only people I will be thanking and blowing kisses to when I'm giving my speech at the Grammies.