HUMBLE yourself......

It’s amazing how time can literally re-structure a person on how they think, how they live and how they view things.  Based on circumstance or personal creation, it doesn’t matter what someone started out with.  It’s what a person is left with.  Just like a bank account.  Money goes in and money comes out.  It’s never the same.  It either goes up or goes down and contrary to life.  Notice how when the bank account is full of money how much happier a person is?  But when there is a huge debt to pay off then suddenly  the balance is almost at a negative, the person becomes noticeably  unhappy.    Truth is, money can’t buy happiness.    Life should be enjoyed no matter what.  From experience, I’ve realized that “The good Lord can giveth and the good Lord can taketh.”  There is no doubt about that.  Viewing it as biblical or just common sense, it relates to someone, somewhere.   No one foresees their life on a crooked path they just walk the one placed before them.  A person can have thousands of dollars and an empty evil soul vs. a person who has one dollar and full heart of love.  So when someone humbles themselves, it is a choice, not an option.  Materialistic people seem to lack something in their lives and those who learn to live without seem to appreciate the littlest things more.  Just because someone doesn’t shop at Bloomindales doesn’t mean they aren’t rich.  They may very well be RICH in love and kindness.  To be honest it is more valuable than anything you could put a price-tag on.  So the advice I give today is to HUMBLE yourself and be kind to others who aren’t as  fortunate as you because one day the shoe might be on the other foot.   And  keep in mind….it probably won’t be a designer shoe. 

 

Broken Angels 2014

BROKEN ANGELS

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"Thank Goodness for the difficult people in my life........."

This blog is about encouragement, confidence and self-esteem.  Years ago I used to base my self-worth on what other’s used to think about me.  But once I started to make my own personal changes in my life, now I am a stronger woman than ever before.  My strength isn’t to intimidate anyone but in hopes to encourage those who still struggle.  Negative people can actually begin to reflect themselves on you.  That is when you need to eliminate them from your life and your happy place.  Broken Angels was first intended to relieve my stress and for me to be able to release my thoughts.  Though I have never completely disabled my page, ”under construction,” Over the years the page indeed has been a consistent process.  As time changes so do people.  That is purely factual and imminent.  Despite the hurdles and difficult people, I managed to literally fix the things that appeared terminal.  I’m proud of who I am and I don’t need a gold star from any particular figure make me feel important.  No one should have to accept humility or disrespect from anyone else.  I find it absurd and inhumane but unfortunately there will always be that type of people that exist.  However, I refuse  to deal with them.  Eventually when they see you are resilient to their hateful way, they will move on the next vulnerable person they consider weaker than them.  I just turn my head and move forward with my day.  Life can humble a materialistic person but life can also bitter a sweet person.  Tears do nothing for problem solving and being horrible to people does nothing for the soul.  Find a happy medium.  For the most part and for the moment that is what I have done.  It seems to have been productive.  But just remember that there is someone that is contempt with seeing you fail and thrives off your weaknesses.  Be careful who you pour your heart out too because someday someone might try to use it against you.  I see nothing wrong with keeping a partial wall up between you and certain people who need to earn your trust with time in order to break it down.  I learned the hard way but I also learned smarter ways.  I’ve decided to harden up a bit and not go out on a limb ever again to say my peace of mind.  At the end of the day, it’s just not worth my time anymore.  I’ve made amends with all the people in my life that truly matter.  The rest who still ponder on the past are not going to be a part of my future. Period; end of story. 

To Forgive or Not to Forgive?????

So as I sit here tonight pondering one particular thought, I ask myself, "If the time were to ever come should I forgive this one person.   This one person who had kicked me while I was down and the one person who tried to take away everything I was?" 

There comes a time when the wind of change happens.  The poor may become rich, the rich may become givers and perhaps the heartless may begin to care.  Whatever the case may be, TIME does change some  people.  When time overlooks the heartless, insane and emotionally challenged souls, sadly they are forever reluctant to change and clueless to their bitterness.  While busy blaming the world for their misery they purposely attempt to sabotage the happy, spirited person.  The broken person who had a difficult journey but refused to let it harden them.  When these two spiritual worlds eventually collide it can become an ugly war.  The war between good and evil, honesty and lies, fairness and vindictiveness.  But the truth is, TIME will favor the good person no matter how many years pass.  The good person will remain dormant and all their antics silent until the right, precise moment.  Then justice can be determined and justice can be served.  The miserable person continues to taunt and attack while losing sight of how the fight even began. But the miserable person is NEVER wrong.  They are the victim and they are always right.  They can tell the same story over and over knowing what was untruthful and what was reality.   But eventually the miserable person gets tired, letting their guard down only to believe they had won.  They feed off of their winnings even when it meant hurting innocent people. They don't lose a minute of sleep at night and they are able to function normally while provoking someone else's pain.  But the good person, the BETTER person hides their tears and never speaks because no one will listen and no one will ever know the truth.  So why waste words on those who refuse to listen?  Time has a way of sneaking up on someone and when that day comes, I will decide if I will forgive that person.  More than likely I will but from the bottom of my heart there will always be a lingering dark hatred that may never lighten up.  In life, we reap what we sow and if we are left on our knees begging for mercy then so be it.  If someone plants rotten seeds in their garden then they can only expect a spoiled crop.  So to forgive or not to forgive?  That is not a question.  It is a choice and that is something I will decide when the time comes.  Should the time ever come. 

TIME

For those of you that have followed my BROKEN ANGELS blog page since 2010, I just wanted to say, "Thank You," for all of the positive feedback.  I rarely blog on this page because I have created a Broken Angels page on Facebook which I cater too more.  However, it is a new year and although I have limited time on my hands now.  Though it may be difficult to find specific moments to write, blogging seems to have sparked my interest again.  During the past 5 years since I had this page, I'm sure many of you have noticed the variety of emotions that were visible to anyone who took the time to read.  Honestly, "I am not bi-polar."  LOL.  Though I have reviewed my past blogs, I must admit that I was a bit out there.  In most cases, I still am but now I have a more logical approach to the experiences I endured and will continue to endure.  I have written hate blogs to happy blogs and all within weeks of each other.  Funny how we change as time does.  The things I used to take for granted I now cherish more.  The people that were cruel to me, I pity and pray for.  The people that loved me in my darkest moments I now help them through theirs.  I truly believe that everyone is a work in progress and can better themselves.  It can't be a good feeling to know you have done wrong to someone.  Anyone with a heart can change their demeanor a day at a time.  Nothing is impossible.  Some people may believe in God and other's may question their beliefs.   However, I have taught myself "not to judge," because I have been judged and extremely harshly.  I realize now that there are people who just don't care.  They don't care to hear the truth.  Once they have portrayed their own version of  story in their minds, there is no changing it.  There is always two, three, four or more sides to a story.  Truth is, unless a person actually went through it with you and was physically there,  "they will never know."  It's been a challenge not to strangle someone when I was told I was lying when I was telling the truth.  Now when I look back at how wrong it was, I just laugh because I turned out to be the better person.  For every friend I had lost over the years, I have gained twice as many loyal, faithful and honest ones.  I am no longer the people pleaser or the follower.  If someone doesn't like me or care for me then F*** em.  It's their loss.  I'd rather be loved for who I am then for someone I am not.  Bottom line.  I have taken the broken pieces and now I have a masterpiece that time created, (one broken piece at a time).  I look back on the broken relationship(s) and realize that it all made me a stronger, wiser and (overall) a better person.  I didn't let the negative permanently define me.  I have learned to let go of what I can't change.  I can't pay a bill for a million dollars if I don't have a million in the bank. Period, end of story.  I have also witnessed how Karma works it wonders.  Never wishing bad on someone but only to see how what goes around went around.  People shouldn't mess with honest, good hearted people because it will only bring their future to a dark place.  That's the way I have seen it.  I have been kicked while I was down, but got back up and now I can say, "You failed at trying to hurt me."  Then of course I visually flipped them off.  And then last but not least, there was the journey of pursuing a degree in journalism.  Well I realize now that I have learned what I intended to learn.  Pathetically, wasting my time trying to impress others that didn't deserve the recognition for my efforts.  Though I had proven to myself successful challenging College Algebra, I realize now, "I have no use for it."  So that "B+" is just a fond memory on a database and the formulas have been long forgotten.  There's six months of my life I can never get back.  And the list goes on.  So I am indeed living proof that life can knock you down but it's a choice to get back up.  I said it once and I will say it again.  "Time has no mercy."  Time doesn't care what you are going through.  Time will leave you in the dust while it continues on.  Don't stress over things you can't change.  Time will work it out if you give it the chance.  Live like it's your last day, laugh as if you never cried and love everyone you can with all of your heart because someday..TIME will take it all away from you.  It's how you use the time you have now to make sure it was all worth the while!

Broken Angels 2014

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