An Angel's Promise

It was four years ago today on November 14th 2006 when my mother took her last breathe of air on earth.


I have so many memories of our happy times together.


It seems like only yesterday when I could hear my mother’s voice singing while she played the guitar. I was just a little girl still and I would have my Barbie dolls dance to the music while she strummed away.


I was told that when she was nine months pregnant with me that I would kick the back of her guitar whenever she played. She knew that I would be a singer and musician before I was even born. It was a gift she passed on to me in the womb and something that I would cherish for always.


The day my mother passed away was a serious turning point in my life. Something in me changed and something in me died too.


It took me two years to finally accept that she was gone. I spent so many nights drowning her loss indulged in wine, glass after glass, hoping the pain would subside. However the liquid cover-up just numbed what I did not want to feel and re-determined what I did not want to believe.


Four years later it still feels like it was all a bad dream.


A few weeks before the angels came to take her, I remember a heart-to-heart conversation we had.


She told that everything happens for a reason and that she would make things right somehow. Not really understanding what she meant, I still shook my head like I understood.


It took some time but I realize now what she was trying to tell me.


Regardless of the fact she was under a lot of medication, I knew that she was coherent enough to know what she was trying to tell me.


Somehow she was giving me a for-warning about the events that she knew I would encounter. All she ever wanted for me was to find happiness and love.


My mother was always there to hold my hand, especially through my first broken heart when I was only 18 years old. Her heart broke whenever I cried and she told me that time would heal all my wounds.


Not a day goes by when I don’t think about my mother. Whether it’s a butterfly that lands on the windowsill or a song that comes on the radio, there is always something that reminds me of her. Sometimes I smile and sometimes I cry.

She often shows me signs that she is with me and the signs are very obvious and undeniable. There is no such thing as coincidences in my book and there have been unexplainable events that occurred, some immediately after she passed.


Sometimes when I look up into the sky there is a huge ‘X,’ and I know that is her way of saying, “hello daughter.”


Other times I will see 11:11 for days at a time as if I’m on a schedule to see it.


Until it is my time to leave this earth I will never truly understand death. Is death just a new beginning for a new calling or is it a promotion to a new mission?


Angels do exist and I have seen one in my life. My mother did visit me on one occasion and it was the most amazing thing I had ever seen.


When she came to me that one night, I was a mess. Feeling helpless and crying, I remember dozing off. When I awoke to a partial level, there she was, right beside me.


The room was glowing with a golden-glow while she looked at me and told me, “I promise everything will be okay. I promise.” Then I fell back asleep.


Miracles do happen and at the most unforeseen times. When I feel lost I just close my eyes and envision that moment. It gives me strength and helps me through the night.


A mother’s love is stronger than any other love in the world. Second chances are granted to anyone who believes in them.


There is no doubt in my mind that my mother is my guardian angel. She watches over me and her grandbabies, keeping us safe from harm.


I don’t know what tomorrow holds or if tomorrow will even arrive but there is one thing I know for sure.


No matter what has happened or will happen, once an angel makes a promise, then the bond will never be broken. For it is no ordinary promise. It is an eternal commitment that is written in the heavens. It is an angel’s promise.


IN MEMORY OF MY MOTHER WHO LOST HER BATTLE TO LUNG CANCER NOVEMBER 14TH, 2006. SHE IS MISSED AND LOVED VERY MUCH.......