TIME

For those of you that have followed my BROKEN ANGELS blog page since 2010, I just wanted to say, "Thank You," for all of the positive feedback.  I rarely blog on this page because I have created a Broken Angels page on Facebook which I cater too more.  However, it is a new year and although I have limited time on my hands now.  Though it may be difficult to find specific moments to write, blogging seems to have sparked my interest again.  During the past 5 years since I had this page, I'm sure many of you have noticed the variety of emotions that were visible to anyone who took the time to read.  Honestly, "I am not bi-polar."  LOL.  Though I have reviewed my past blogs, I must admit that I was a bit out there.  In most cases, I still am but now I have a more logical approach to the experiences I endured and will continue to endure.  I have written hate blogs to happy blogs and all within weeks of each other.  Funny how we change as time does.  The things I used to take for granted I now cherish more.  The people that were cruel to me, I pity and pray for.  The people that loved me in my darkest moments I now help them through theirs.  I truly believe that everyone is a work in progress and can better themselves.  It can't be a good feeling to know you have done wrong to someone.  Anyone with a heart can change their demeanor a day at a time.  Nothing is impossible.  Some people may believe in God and other's may question their beliefs.   However, I have taught myself "not to judge," because I have been judged and extremely harshly.  I realize now that there are people who just don't care.  They don't care to hear the truth.  Once they have portrayed their own version of  story in their minds, there is no changing it.  There is always two, three, four or more sides to a story.  Truth is, unless a person actually went through it with you and was physically there,  "they will never know."  It's been a challenge not to strangle someone when I was told I was lying when I was telling the truth.  Now when I look back at how wrong it was, I just laugh because I turned out to be the better person.  For every friend I had lost over the years, I have gained twice as many loyal, faithful and honest ones.  I am no longer the people pleaser or the follower.  If someone doesn't like me or care for me then F*** em.  It's their loss.  I'd rather be loved for who I am then for someone I am not.  Bottom line.  I have taken the broken pieces and now I have a masterpiece that time created, (one broken piece at a time).  I look back on the broken relationship(s) and realize that it all made me a stronger, wiser and (overall) a better person.  I didn't let the negative permanently define me.  I have learned to let go of what I can't change.  I can't pay a bill for a million dollars if I don't have a million in the bank. Period, end of story.  I have also witnessed how Karma works it wonders.  Never wishing bad on someone but only to see how what goes around went around.  People shouldn't mess with honest, good hearted people because it will only bring their future to a dark place.  That's the way I have seen it.  I have been kicked while I was down, but got back up and now I can say, "You failed at trying to hurt me."  Then of course I visually flipped them off.  And then last but not least, there was the journey of pursuing a degree in journalism.  Well I realize now that I have learned what I intended to learn.  Pathetically, wasting my time trying to impress others that didn't deserve the recognition for my efforts.  Though I had proven to myself successful challenging College Algebra, I realize now, "I have no use for it."  So that "B+" is just a fond memory on a database and the formulas have been long forgotten.  There's six months of my life I can never get back.  And the list goes on.  So I am indeed living proof that life can knock you down but it's a choice to get back up.  I said it once and I will say it again.  "Time has no mercy."  Time doesn't care what you are going through.  Time will leave you in the dust while it continues on.  Don't stress over things you can't change.  Time will work it out if you give it the chance.  Live like it's your last day, laugh as if you never cried and love everyone you can with all of your heart because someday..TIME will take it all away from you.  It's how you use the time you have now to make sure it was all worth the while!

Broken Angels 2014